Thursday, September 13, 2012

dreams

09_13_2012
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I'm cautious. Like 'grandma afraid to drive 45 mph on a street set at a 45 mph speed limit' cautious. 'Hold myself back' cautious. It is part of the reason why I am 23 going on 40. It is also part of the reason why I beat my head against a wall over what I want versus what I'm willing to do.

I can proudly say I am a creative. I will never have the sketching skills of my father (that my brother inherited). I will never paint murals (well). [somewhere in here there is a never say never quote] But I have always been great at photography and design/layout. I forced my way through journalism classes to get to yearbook and I excelled in film photography, an art form I truly miss. High school Hannah still wants to convert a bathroom into a dark room when we own a home. My dad always told me I should work in magazines because I had "the eye" for placement and aesthetics.

He also says that's why I was good at cake decorating. I say I was good at cake decorating because I like cake. We will agree to disagree on that one ;)

So when James and I relocated from Las Vegas to Northern Virginia my "word of mouth" cake business was over and to be honest, I'm not sure I will ever try to resurrect that part of my life. I have happy memories, memories of long nights, and a little piece of my heart full of buttercream icing. Somewhere in the back of this big ol' brain is still a dream of owning a brick and mortar bakery that I can spend all day covered in icing and playing with fondant. But I don't know that it is a reality dream anymore. More of a "in another life" dream. I am okay with this. I've made my peace.

Truth be told, I've found a new dream. A new goal. A passion I lost years ago. An adventure. My adventure. A dream I am working to make a reality. It is taking flight.

Will you let your dreams take flight? Whatever they may be...

xoxohannah

4 comments :

  1. How lovely! I'm so glad your dream is taking flight. What a thoughtful and inspiring post.

    http://shannonhearts.blogspot.com/

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  2. Wow, what a stunning, honest post. I always love when people share the more honest bits of themselves and their lives--sure I love all the glitz and glam of fashion posts and Pinterest boards and trips to fancy restaurants, but sometimes what you need is just a big ol' dose of honesty. I think that it's in sharing things like that that we connect the most as humans.

    And I totally relate about the 'being-too-cautious' thing; my dad has told me since I was about six that I was a middle-aged woman trapped in a child's body. So here's to dreaming the next dream for both of us!

    http://autodidacticambitions.blogspot.com

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  3. Owning a bakery has been a dream of mine as well. There is talk of POSSIBLY opening something in Qatar, but man, the thought is just too good to be true! I'm still trying to find my way... I go back and forth with so many things daily. It's hard to choose just one dream!

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  4. how inspiring! I'm a cautious person by nature too - thanks for inspiration!

    XO
    www.pearlsandpaws.blogspot.com

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